• One day I will be your Peapod again.

    by  • August 12, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 2 Comments

    I loved you so much. I thought that you were going to be the man I married. I trusted you more than I’ve ever trusted anyone. I think that’s why it’s so hard for me to forget about all the shit that happened at the end of our relationship. Somehow you’ve managed to forgive me, or so you say, but I haven’t been able to do the same. I’m sorry for that. I wish I would have tried harder, but I don’t know.. part of me didn’t want to go back. It’s all ego or pride or whatever part of my fucked up personality that won’t allow me to be in a long term, stable, happy, committed relationship. I know that I have fucked up. Royally. I don’t know why I have done the things that I’ve done. I knew they would hurt and I knew they were temporary. I guess I just always hoped you wouldn’t know. Nothing ever filled that emptiness that I’m now convinced I invented with my own imagination.

    Fuck this. I don’t know why I’m writing this. I just I miss you. Every. God. Damn. Day. I miss you so much. And I’m sorry.

    One day I will be your Peapod again.

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    2 Responses to One day I will be your Peapod again.

    1. The J Man
      August 12, 2013 at 11:15 pm

      Verily I say unto you,
      “Not a word escapes your lips, not a deed done or undone, not a look nor a glance with a lustful mind goes unrecorded in the Book of Life. Forwhatsover you do that is not kind, not noble, deeds outwardly or hidden by darkness that produce harm,or offend or twisteth anothers mind for your own sake, thou shalt be responsible”

      ” First seek to give full restitution to your friends and acquaintances, who you have practiced deception unto and once your debt to them in paid here on Earth as well as the House of my Father, shall you be freed from your transgressions. This would mean not one, but seeketh thee a large amount of parchment to list their names. Go to them, one by one, and confess all your misdeeds, omitting not even the slightest of them. Only then shall be you be free.”

      Even though it will seem like threading a camel through the eye of a needle, this is your only way to recapture the Grace granted to pure souls, the Grace of My Father.


    2. The Choice Is Yours
      August 13, 2013 at 10:44 am

      It is never to late dear Author & many of us here would love nothing more than that chance to be reunited with the one we love. You will regret it if you miss the chance to what for you may be something you have always dreamed of?



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