Because I was slightly intoxicated upon posting this: I miss you, I want to talk to you, I want to be in your presence, I want this ache to come to an end.
Wishful thinking I know. I had to, HAD to, because I don’t know any better. I have no idea how to handle feelings, I never learned how to.
You all should consider yourselves lucky, I don’t know what the hell I’m doing, never have, and never will. Do you understand what it is like to watch every one else pair up and tell stories while you have none ?
Anyway, I was partially intoxicated upon typewriting this and listening to Zeitgeist whilst doing so. Thank you, I may not have a companion by my side, but I have music in my ears, that will do for now.
And while I’m at it, can god lend a hand and relieve me from temptation. I sincerely do not wish to taste anymore, it almost killed me twice before, I cannot afford to take such a risk once more.
As if this even matters, they are just words after all.
This ended up being more about myself than anyone else… Goodnight.