I wasn’t looking to connect with anyone on a spiritual level but with you I did. I broke so many rules I’d set to protect myself from being hurt and taken advantage of again, but you assured me you had my best interest in mind and only sought to be friends. Initially that is, until my “beauty” and “amazing personality” made you realize you had developed feelings towards me. When I didn’t reciprocate you stopped hanging out with me or rather only hung out with me when it was convenient for you. So all of a sudden i was not only being used but strung along when you had nothing better to do…I thought we were friends. You told me you wished we could be buds forever. I thought you were serious about us going to South America on a back packing trip 🙁 I believed all your lies. Three years of being put on by you, dealing with your issues forgiving you for everything you did. Only to be used for sex when I was high on drugs you fed me. You are not a kindred spirit. You are a manipulative, selfish, narcissistic, sick perverted fuckwad. I trusted you more than I had trusted anyone and you betrayed me. I remember when you said “I’m just waiting for you to be yourself with me” even when i have always been real, speaking my truth. I’m not a child I don’t need to hide behind some bullshit front, but apparently you were even though you’re twice my age. I can’t believe i slept with you, even more so that you didn’t want anything to do with me afterwards. I feel so ashamed of myself. I don’t hate you but I gave you far too many chances and you fucked me over time and time again. So much for trying to be a good person. I hope someone does to you what you did to me. Karma is a bitch.