• Never Enough

    by  • August 4, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 2 Comments

    I know you’re never going to read this. And you’re never going to understand. But I miss you for all of the wrong reasons. I miss you because I feel like if I were to have you again I might feel like I was enough for someone. I miss you because I can’t stand the fact that I was that easy for you to let go. I miss you because I know you don’t miss me.

    Am I really so bad? No. And I know that. I don’t show any jealousy when I feel it, I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t cheat, I’m not dramatic, I’m not anything really. And maybe that’s why I’m so easy to let go of. I’m average.

    But thank you for breaking me to the point where I felt it necessary to start over; to get a new outlook on things.

    I know you’ll regret pushing me away. Everyone does. Because I care too much. But I refuse to take someone back who takes me for granted. And I can’t wait until you ask for me back so I can shut you down and you have to feel what I’m feeling.

    But you’ll never know any of this. Because you’re never going to read this.

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    2 Responses to Never Enough

    1. Lauren
      August 5, 2013 at 1:28 pm

      If I didn’t know any better, I would say that I wrote this. I couldn’t have said it better myself, but I can say that I his push for me to move away and start over has changed my life.




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    2. D
      October 31, 2013 at 1:02 am

      I really hope you aren’t talking to me. But now I get the feeling you are. And if this is a game you are playing, please stop. My feelings are not a game. I have loved you since the day of the peanut incident.

      You were not easy to let go. It made it a little easier because I thought you wanted me to let go 🙁 I cried. A lot. Heck I’m still crying. And you know I’m not sleeping either. I can’t keep this up much longer.

      I loved you then & I still love you now. Please don’t hold my being unsure of how to deal with feelings that were brand new to me (still are) against me. Especially because of our situation. I didn’t know how we would ever be able to work. I didn’t want to get hurt. I really thought you didn’t care. You are just as much to blame for this as I am. It was a 50/50 deal. If you had of given me any inclination at all that you has of liked me too I wouldn’t have had to panic & start trying to escape because I thought I was on a one way street.

      Please don’t shut me down. If I had of known you felt the same way…why couldn’t you have told me? Seriously.




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