This month makes it a year since I’ve last seen or spoken to you. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. Sometimes I just sit down and reminisce, sometimes I smile, sometimes I cry, right now I just don;t know what to do.
I remember the last day I saw you and told you I was moving. The moment I walked through the building my eyes were flooded with tears, ironically it started raining that very instant. I was extremely sad knowing I probably would never see you again. I cried myself to sleep almost every night of that week.
I know that I am young and naive and might not know a lot, and I know we do not know each that well but I know that I am absolutely crazy about you and I long to just kiss you and run into your arms and stay there forever. I miss you so much. I hope I do not end up like F Scott Fitzgerald and die with that hole in my heart. 25 yeas later writing novels about a long lost love. I wonder how long it is going to take me to get over you. What if I never do. I might have someone right now but what i feel for him isn’t even remotely close to what I feel for you. I know we had a connection, we had an unspoken intimacy. I love you and I miss you so much it hurts. You are the most beautiful man in the world to me and I hope you’ll find a wonderful wife.
It hurts to even picture you with someone else but I know I need to let you go. It is very hard but i know i have to. No one understands us. I know it can work, it is more than possible but I feel like I’m holding on to a false hope. We do not even stay in touch. I understand that we can’t right now. Everything in my gut wants to pursue a relationship with you but how do I know i’m not wasting my time investing all this emotion in you? How do I know that the best thing to do is actually to give up ? How do I know. I guess I’ll have to wait for that answer. While we wait just remember I love you dearly and wish you nothing but happiness.
— you’re angel —