I do miss you but it’s different now. Maybe I’m where I should have been when we were talking. I don’t know you anymore and that makes me sad. But it doesn’t hurt like it used to because of how you treated our friendship. We all have problems you know. You were never alone in this, yet you treated me like I was a stranger there for awhile. Which was in stark contrast to how it was before and how we used to be.
There was a time when I trusted you like no other. That’s gone now. You hurt me and there is no more friendship or us anymore. Every day I tried. Every day. One day I gave up when I realized you gave up a long time before I did. A clean break is better than a slow fade away with you. I’ll never understand why you did what you did. But I guess some things are not meant to be understood, but accepted.
What I know in my heart is that you hurt me. And that is not okay. Just because you said you were sorry doesn’t mean you meant it. If you meant it you wouldn’t have made the choice every day to hurt me while I was making the choice every day to love you.