Mom- i love you loads but i’m not going to open up to you, sorry. i know you hate lying but when i lie to you its for your own protection, because the less you know about just how sad and pathetic my life is, the better. please stop trying to get inside my head, its fucking scary in there.
S- all i want is to make your life better but I feel like all i do is make it worse. I’m so sorry, you deserve better than me. i’m fucked up and none of that is your fault, you’re wonderful so please please please don’t let anybody, including myself, tell you different. oh and whatever you do, don’t turn out like me, because you’re better than that. love you
thats all. you guys say you miss the “old” me but depression killed her. i miss her too.