I no longer know how much of this is depression and how much is just my mind telling me I am no good. I see familiar faces in crowds just to turn away. I do not talk or acknowledge any of them. Catching up would involve telling them how much my life has gone down hill. I need help but do not want to be a burden to those I care about. I feel as though my hardships are things others should not worry about. I have always felt like I was never good enough for anything or anyone. I just sit through bringing people in unintentionally only to push them away. If only I could end my depression and my low self esteem I would be a shining pillar of light. I just put up a act so no one sees how depressed I really am. If I could have just held on to one of those people I pushed away maybe I could have made it through this sooner. If it was not for my family I probably would be in a darker place. Life please send me a beacon, a flash, a flare of light to reach out of dark times.
Bastion U. R.