• if my life was in better place

    by  • July 24, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 1 Comment

    I don’t know why I’m here. I do what ever i can do fulfil my dreams. But i can’t. No. I can. But i met lot of obstacles on my way. I just wish that everyday i could wake up the morning and feel that everybody know his i feel. How i want to change. I’m single. I never had a relationships. I feel alone. I love so many people but I never get the same feeling back. I know that I’ll never be alone but I’m afraid of loneliness. It’s like a phobia. To love subtly and don’t get back anything kills me. I have a dream of better life. The one I’ll enjoy. The one I’ll love. I’m happy tau I’m alive tho I don’t know if I want to be any more. But I can’t take my life away from me Cuz it wasn’t given by me I wad given it to me. Some people have everything. Some people have nothing but they are at the same level of happiness. Downshifting is not a live style I’m looking for. I want to live in New York. I want to have a wife. family. Know what’s like to love and to be loved back. I feel that my dreams are to big for me to handle but I know in my guts that I can fulfil them. Help. I need somebody to understand me. The people I trusted have betrayed me. I’m alone. But I don’t want to be.i barely from month to month but I’m still living my dream of what I want to become… I’m alone. But I know there is somebody who knows me. Who can help me. Who can fill me up. Love. Who? I don’t know. I just hope that one day I’ll find that one. .

    One Response to if my life was in better place

    1. Ah Ha. Try this pill
      July 28, 2013 at 2:29 pm

      I believe it those dreams that will save you. But in the current condition, pulling off anything “big” will be next to impossible.

      You need to get your confidence back.

      Try this on for size and see if it fits you for a year or so.

      Shoot for smaller successes but make them closer together. It almost doesn’t matter in what area you try, just as long as your are feeling productive. You’re a guy. What about running every am or joining a gym. That never hurt anyone and has helped 98% of those who stick with it.

      Not your bag? Take some evening courses that will make you smarter and more capable in your chosen profession. That iosn’t any ltlle picnic, NYC.

      You my friend better be armed and dangerous to win in that place.

      Good Luck, man.

      Oh, and volunteer. That’s where the non wackos hang out.

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