I don’t know why I’m here. I do what ever i can do fulfil my dreams. But i can’t. No. I can. But i met lot of obstacles on my way. I just wish that everyday i could wake up the morning and feel that everybody know his i feel. How i want to change. I’m single. I never had a relationships. I feel alone. I love so many people but I never get the same feeling back. I know that I’ll never be alone but I’m afraid of loneliness. It’s like a phobia. To love subtly and don’t get back anything kills me. I have a dream of better life. The one I’ll enjoy. The one I’ll love. I’m happy tau I’m alive tho I don’t know if I want to be any more. But I can’t take my life away from me Cuz it wasn’t given by me I wad given it to me. Some people have everything. Some people have nothing but they are at the same level of happiness. Downshifting is not a live style I’m looking for. I want to live in New York. I want to have a wife. family. Know what’s like to love and to be loved back. I feel that my dreams are to big for me to handle but I know in my guts that I can fulfil them. Help. I need somebody to understand me. The people I trusted have betrayed me. I’m alone. But I don’t want to be.i barely from month to month but I’m still living my dream of what I want to become… I’m alone. But I know there is somebody who knows me. Who can help me. Who can fill me up. Love. Who? I don’t know. I just hope that one day I’ll find that one. .