• Hate

    by  • July 5, 2013 • Depression • 1 Comment

    Dear family,
    I know you all hate me. I know I can’t do anything right. How do I know this? The way you act around me, the way you talk about me, they way you all ignore me when I need help the most. I know I fuck up a lot, and I’m trying to be better at everything, really I am. But it’s hard when everyone just focuses on the bad I’ve done. I hate how all of you only care about her and him and his fat fiance. I’m your daughter too!!!! I need your attention and love too. I know I can’t tell you I cut again, because you will say it’s for attention since her and him are sick now. But it’s really because of how much I fuck up and you all only focus on that. I’m sorry I am nothing. I’m sorry I fuck up. I’m sorry that this will be my last year on Earth.

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    One Response to Hate

    1. B
      July 5, 2013 at 11:35 pm

      This is very similar to how i am feeling and what i have gone through in the past. I was a self mutalist, drug addled, suicidal teenager. My parents were abusive. My father remains to be so, but that doesn’t mean that some devaluing your life is worth taking your life. Don’t kill your self because someone else can’t see the pain they cause you or the pain you’re going through. Reach out to some one else. You have the rest of your life ahead of you. I’ve had a difficult life as well and I’ve had many low points but i’ve toughed it out. You just need to fight. It gets better. When you’re in the thick of it, surrounded by people so ready to watch you fail it’s easy to give up DON’T! Don’t let them win. Be stronger than they give you credit for. Find an outlet for the pain other than cutting yourself and let the pain out. Art is an incredible way to get anger and frustration out. Your life is worth so much, don’t waste it because others refuse to acknowledge your worth.



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