Well, I’ve learned my lesson. Sometimes in life you just have to say “fuck it” and walk away. But you know what? I’m pissed and I have every reason to be. But, I’m saying this here so you won’t have the satisfaction of using this letter as an excuse or justification for your actions (or lack thereof).
I was your friend. And I think I was a pretty damn good one. I always spoke the truth and took responsibility for my feelings. I feel you kept changing your mind and was not clear at all about your feelings until that one day. And that was only because of your break up. I even told you I didn’t know what your feelings were up until that day.
I had thought prior to that that we were going to be just friends because I knew stuff was about to come to a head in both our lives. But then all of the sudden you started unleashing all these emotions and I got scared because of your inconsistency. The next day I reached out and you just shut down and assumed so much and basically stopped communicating. Then you completely changed your feelings again. You act like a stranger.
That is not okay. Not okay at all. And to top it off you made it out to be that it was my fault somehow. You said you were tired of it. Tired of what? Me not dropping everything to be with you so you could feel better about your break up? Sane people do not do that. Then you just had to take control, flip it, and demand just being friends because you have so much stress right now. Yeah, join the club.
You wanted things simple; I gave you simple. I was tired of getting flaked on. One last time I tried. At least I tried. It pisses me off that you said you were tired of our situation. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA how tired I am? How fucking tired I am of your wishy washy friendship? You constantly say one thing and do another. WTF?
So do me a favor. If this is how you want to treat me, then I don’t want you in my life. You said you loved me and cared about our friendship. For once, just this once PROVE IT.
I do not want you contacting me months down the line acting like this never happened. We’ve already been down that road and I’m tired of feeling like I’m nothing – that my friendship is nothing. And you ask me why I question your sincerity…
Stop being in denial, stop procrastinating, stop fucking up our friendship damn it!