Long time no talk. Today I realized something important. The reason why I always came back to you is because I thought I deserved to be treated like shit.
I was emotionally abused while growing up which led me to a string of (mostly) self-centered assholes who also abused me in some way, shape or form. Turns out, you were the biggest asshole of all.
As I look back I cannot believe the ocean of crap I let you put me through. I don’t know who is more crazy – me or you. I’m thinking you because at least I know what’s what now. Better late than never right?
You played with my emotions constantly because you have some seriously fucked up issues. I used to think I was broken and only your love could fix me. HOLY SHIT, what a crock of mind fuck.
You hurt everyone you touch. Whether by manipulation, using them until they have nothing left to give, emotional abuse, or influencing them to drink/abuse drugs. If misery loves company, you are the poster child.
Man oh man this huge weight of darkness has finally, FINALLY lifted off me. No more self-imposed guilt or pain!
Love always (NOT),