I get it. Believe me, I do. But if you think someone is fucking with you/playing games with your heart, then you need to control yourself and TAKE CARE of yourself. If you do not, you flip out until you are exhausted, get to a “comfortable place”, interact again with the object of your affection, and when they do something that isn’t part of your own internal script, you flip out again. STOP IT. Kick your own ass. You are making yourself crazy. It doesn’t mean at your core you are crazy but you are doing harm to yourself mentally. Being like this constantly doesn’t help, and will only push that person away – which maybe you are doing so that at least “you have an answer” to if they love you or not. But if you do that, then you will feel guilty and start the whole flippin cycle again. So please. STOP. Completely let go and quiet your mind. Do whatever you have to do for YOURSELF and your sanity.