• I often wonder

    by  • March 3, 2013 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 4 Comments

    Why it hurts so much when someone that you really like and care about doesn’t care back. Then they decide to stop talking to you. And it just hurts so much! I mean literal physical pain! And you just want to end it all, as if your life is not worth living. Sometimes it gets that bad. How do we, as humans, put so much importance on other people. Is it that we relied so much on this other person to make us happy? And now they’ve been ripped from our lives when they don’t feel the same or when they feel like moving on…and never want to talk to us again, as if we’ve done something so wrong to them, but we still want to communicate and reconnect. All they want is to be left alone and it doesn’t exactly make sense. :/ It all seems so stupid. Then you do feel stupid and pathetic. All because of this person?? Does that mean we are needy? I just wish I wouldn’t feel this hurt. I feel betrayed and have done nothing wrong. I never got the chance to be myself. I thought I was worth it. I tried, but I needed time to warm up. Why don’t I want to be mad at this other person? I sort of feel like not being mad is making it worse, and they’ll never know any of it. So why do I care…shouldn’t there be other important things for me to focus on?

    4 Responses to I often wonder

    1. Gemini
      March 3, 2013 at 7:57 pm

      Wonder no more. They (whomever they are) made a poor decision and have accepted the possibility of your loss in their life, when they made that decision.

      I don’t say this to be mean, callous, or rude. I say it because I have been there. There’s nothing like cyclic thoughts, into redundancy, that focus on something you can’t control. They had the chance to be an adult about the situation and communicate with you – at very least, providing an explanation – and they failed in this responsibility. Especially, as your ‘friend’.

      So, be mad. Get angry and vehemently decide to break that veritable residue that kept you connected. You deserve better than that. Anyone deserves better than that bullshit, really.

      Just my two pence, really…

    2. cheech
      March 4, 2013 at 6:20 pm

      You speak the truth. Thanks for your perspective. It’s appreciated!

    3. IFeelYa
      March 29, 2013 at 11:10 pm

      I have to admit that I did this to a person recently. She was being so friendly, and I cut her off. It had nothing to do with her at all. I just didn’t want to cause problems for her or myself with misinterpretations or misunderstandings. I apologized by I don’t believe that she thinks I am sincere. I want to start over (promising to never do something like this again). I’ve never regretted something so much.

      Gemini is right. Most importantly, do not take it personally or let it make you feel bad.

    4. D
      March 31, 2013 at 3:08 pm

      I know people that do this and I am closer than ever to cutting them off for good. I have had enough of it.

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