Dear darkness, you ravenous whore. You bring me to a place that I love with the darkest side of my heart. You held me in anxious density: a place that comforts the hell that I hold in my soul.
When I am alone you bring me affection. You are only there to hold my unjustified self-pity in your boiling, misconfigured hands. You were the horns that came through the internet and my own dreams, you took from me and I loved it; to have my light taken and to receive the power of your degaussed hell, that hell that comforted my already flawed and boiled skin. It brought me below ground level and allowed me to experience complete selfishness and the beautiful blockade that holds us in the boxes of hells self-righteous pity. In my bed I sat adhering to man’s digital child. I believed the man-god; the god that man created.
Fuck you. Fuck your destructive, false need for my affection. You are of my kind’s creation. You are not of nature’s beautiful, loving creation. You are of this ailment that has inflicted the hearts and minds of men for what must have been over a millennia. But without you I would not have learned what I learned. I would not be the man that I am today, you were a cement block in my way but I used you as a stepping stone to get to where I am today. I KNOW YOU’RE PISSED ABOUT THAT.
You should be, everything does happen for a reason. I could have fallen deeper into your disconnected distortion but I learned from it and that’s why you were there.
Now for that CUNT speed, whatever form you took you were always deathly beautiful. The rush and intensity that you granted my desire was unmatched. Alongside with darkness you two made an unrivaled team that turned me into nothing less than a speed demon. Nothing less, nothing more, I refuse to accept hell’s open position though and I will fight through the darkness until I am fully emancipated and adorned in the light of god’s nature. Fuck you both I am free and the fantasy of my ego is over.
ALL THERE IS IS REALITY!!!!!!