This is the second and likely the last posting I post on this site. I am writing it to someone I don’t even know; someone’s husband. You don’t know this, but you cross my mind often. I feel so bad about what happened. I would like to sincerely apologize to you. If it makes you feel any better I wanted to let you know that I did not get off scott free here. I’m struggling to accept the fact that I’m not the upstanding person I once was. It’s hard. I’m ashamed. I miss not having a jaded past. I miss having a life where nobody hated me. I miss being able to wake up and go to bed without feeling the tension I have helped create in so many good people’s lives. I don’t know you, but I imagine you are a really great guy, the kind of guy I would be honored to call a friend. I’m not asking for your forgiveness because that’s just too much for someone in my shoes to ask for. I do, however, want you to know that I apologize and wish you the very best.