I still miss you so much, I still think about you so often. I still remember our times together and some days I desperately desperately wish I was back there with you, with your arms around me and in our own little world together.
I know that’s never going to happen and I know that too many people would be hurt by us being together. It would probably crucify us before we had even started. But there’s still some days when I think about making that leap of faith you talked about, there’s still some days when I wish we could do it.
It does help writing on here, it helps me not to contact you and make things worse when we need to leave it all behind and get on with our own lives. There are some words to a song I love at the moment which are so true …
“where there is desire there is going to be a flame … where there is a flame someone’s bound to get burnt … but just because it burns doesn’t mean you’re going to die … you’ve got to get up and try”
…. I’m still trying 🙁