• Open your hand; Take a glass; Don’t be scared; I’m right here.

    by  • December 19, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Closure • 2 Comments

    J–

    I haven’t written to you in a while on here and to be honest, I’m not really sure why I am now..and I’m not even sure if you still check this website to see if I’ve written.

    What I want you to know is how thankful I am for the other day. The laughs. The awkward stares. The even more awkward hug when I took you home.

    We maybe over romantically but the other day made me realize that we will never ever be over as friends. That is the best feeling ever. I look forward to goofing off and talking as friends do, even though I know that’ll take time.

    Fate and timing may have worked against our relationship, but maybe we’re getting a second chance at being best friends? We’ve always been so good at that. I know you feel the same, and I know you want to fight for us, and I love you for that, but what I love even more is that you’re willing to just be friends. Thank you for that.

    I also want you to know that if it ever gets too hard to just be friends, tell me. I’ll tell you too. I mean that’s normal..to not be okay with just being friends, right?

    But then again you and I have NEVER been normal. So…..maybe this friends thing will work out? I think it will. I hope so much that it will. Because you’re such a lovely friend.

    Thank you for loving me. Loving me enough to understand that this is what’s best for me right now and maybe even for the both of us. Thank you for being so wonderful. You’re the most wonderful human being I’ve ever met. And I consider myself so incredibly lucky to call myself your friend.

    I love you, Petunia Madagascar. That will never change, even though our relationship has.

    We’re like the Avengers..We’ll beat the evil creepy horned, pale, freaky looking guy. And that’s about all I can say, well, because you never saw the movie. You should watch it mister! It’s a good film. But really. We’ll get over this hump. We always have and we always will. We’re an unstoppable team, loser.

    Come what may.

    –Mr. H

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    2 Responses to Open your hand; Take a glass; Don’t be scared; I’m right here.

    1. Jake
      December 20, 2012 at 7:55 am

      I don’t know why I checked this or why I have been lately. I guess I’ve just been trying hard to reach out to you by not reaching out to you. I’m trying to support you Mary, I really am and I feel so selfish by feeling like I’m doing the total opposite right now. Maybe it’s just too hard right now and it’ll get better, but I just see no way in that right now and I don’t know why. It always hits me right after we hug and I can’t kiss you after you smile, or when I look into your eyes and can’t say I love you anymore. I don’t know why I’m telling you this on here, it’s not an on-here-thing. I guess I am because I don’t want to waste the time we have together being down, I’d rather make you laugh. Well you probably won’t check back at this and I’ve said too much, but oh well. I love you too, Mr. H.
      Ps. In the third paragraph it’s “may be*” 😉
      Lots of oranges. Jake




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    2. Jess
      December 20, 2012 at 10:24 pm

      I don’t know either of you, nor can I begin to hand out advice when my relationship is less than perfect. I will say from these two small openings of your relationship, I can read between the lines in both. A real love doesn’t come around, and not everyone gets to experience it. Remember that timing is never right, life is always crazy, and its not about making the timing right, that you cannot control what you can control is grabbing hold of whats real in your life, whats right in front of you and never letting go of it.

      Just my two cents. I hope you both find what you need : )




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