I’ve been thinking about you lately, the woman that my husband once loved. Or is it love?
I remember the photo’s of you two, i now realized that he doesn’t look at me like that. His smile doesn’t seem quite as happy anymore.
After six years of loving him, how do i only realize this now? How have i been so naive?
Somethimes i wish i could understand what your relationship was like, maybe it will help me understand my relationship with him a bit better. Maybe then i will understand the anger i saw in your eyes the first time we met, the anger that i’m starting to feel.
Everytime i think of you, my heart feels like it’s going to stop beating, your bond is so strong that even MY heart feels it. I now realize that he has always loved you more than me.
I need to say this, i wish i had the guts to say it to your face… I’m so sorry!!! I thought that your relationship was over, i thought that he loved me, i thought you would get over it. I realize now that i was just so naive, and he was just amused because i was something new. If i had any idea that my heart could mistake lust for love, i would not have done this, i would not have taken him from you.
I know that you loved/love him just as much as i do, and now that i feel the pain, i can only imagine what you must have felt, or what you are still feeling.
From one woman to another, i truky am sorry that i allowed you to go through those emotions.
I can not turn back time, and i can not fix your heart or mine, but i just hope that maybe one day you will understand that i never meant to hurt you.
If you love him as much as i do, then please just know that i will do my best to take care of him, and i hope that one day i will make him as happy as you did.
I also really hope that you find happiness!!
The one married to a man that will never give her his heart.