i will never understand why you hurt yourself. i will never understand why you constantly let guys walk all over you and use you. you always tell me that you look up to me, that i’m beautiful and strong and going places. i do believe that you’re beautiful too, and you’re going to be so successful and nothing can keep you from doing great things. but, i can never say that i look up to you. you treat yourself like you’re worthless. why can’t you see what i and so many others see in you? why do you resort to bulimia and cutting? i want to help you so bad, i want you to stop. you are so much better than that. all those guys you bring home deserve nothing to do with you. you are so, so beautiful inside and out. so much compassion and so much love for others, please, be selfish and save some of that love for yourself. as your best friend, i am trying everything i can do to get you to a healthy place, to get my best girl back– my better half.