Tonight I had a regular night. It wasn’t great or funny or boring or anything worth remembering and that may just be the reason it was everything I needed. I spend so much time contemplating, the ideas just flow through my head like one belongs to the next and are incomplete without each other. Thank you for taking the weight off of my shoulders if only for a moment. Today I had a little bit of everything. I showered, ate in, ate out, went to two coffee shops, shopped, drove, hurried, relaxed, cleaned, freaked out, got organized and just let it all go to bring me to a very interesting observation towards the end of my night while I was catching up with a friend and a friend of a friend.
I am so oblivious. I’m blind. I’m selfish and over confident. I feel like I was just hit by a train. How paralyzing it must be to be sorted into the wrong pile and left as unusable. I feel like you have been trying to be yourself and I just keep on insisting that you have no idea who YOU are. What the ****. You are such a cutie. I’d like to get you worked up but I don’t think you’ll ever allow it, just so you know. Give me a break, huh? Can we please be friends?