• You are always on my mind

    by  • December 15, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Thinking of you • 1 Comment

    Dear C,
    You were my life for the longest time, whether is was one of our romantic flings or us as best friends. I feel sick when I think about some of the things I put you through and how we’ve ended up so far apart. I still care about you just as much as I ever did, I love you just the same as I always have. I think about you daily and how much I miss you…even if it was just talking to you I would be content. I broke contact because I felt I was a toxic thing in your life with my constant indecision, and you didn’t deserve the pain I brought with me. I have baggage and a whole graveyard of skeletons in my closet that influence my terrible decisions. I just wish things could have been different with us, I wish we had a chance as adults. I’m sorry for all of the things that I have caused..I’m sorry I couldn’t be a better person.

    I love you, and I always will.
    -A

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    One Response to You are always on my mind

    1. C
      December 15, 2012 at 10:41 am

      A,
      I wish you were my A, but I know it’s not you. My A left me a long time ago and never even gave me an explanation. Still, somehow reading this helped me. Maybe that’s all we really need, some closure. No matter what happened in the past, it’s done and over with. We just got to pick up all the pieces and move on, even when it seems impossible to do so.
      It still hurts, every now and then, but I think I’ll be alright.
      Sincerely,
      C




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