• Talking to Myself

    by  • December 14, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 3 Comments

    “can anybody hear me? or am I talking to myself?”

    The Problem is, I know you are reading this and you don’t care either. For this a part of me is glad, and another part of me is terribly sad. I feel broken, like a toy used by a two year old then left in the corner. I’m so sick of my plastic smile I have to hide behind. Don’t open this can of Soda, it will just blow up in your face. I sound like just another whiney internet user, I know. I’m sorry to whomever took time out of the precious life to read this drivel. It really isn’t worth the time.

    Long story short: I have been struggling with Depression since I was 11 years old. (I am now 19) but in a group of siblings who drink, experiment with drugs, frequently run away, and all sorts of other crazy I am the support. I hold everyone up. I make the peace.

    I’m just so tired. I am just so DONE with trying to help everyone fix their problems then curling up on the floor of my room and sobbing while I slice my arms and legs with scissors. I am tired of feeling lonely all the time.

    over and out.

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    3 Responses to Talking to Myself

    1. wolffy
      December 14, 2012 at 10:34 am

      You’re not alone. Some of us were born to keep the peace. Otherwise wed all be dead. I’m the same in my family. And I talk to myself all the time. At the end of the day were stuck alone with ourself anyway. You can’t truly love anyone if you don’t love yourself. I know its hard but cutting isn’t going to get you anything but scars. I’m on depression pills and they help. Wake up beautiful, before you’ve lost yourself.


    2. Aimee
      December 14, 2012 at 12:19 pm

      The world may seem like a lonely place. Don’t give up. Don’t let yourself slip away. You can overcome this and you can escape into a better life. You can do this. I believe in you. x


    3. Alex
      December 14, 2012 at 8:24 pm

      Hey, There’s people still listening here. We care, some people understand and we are here for you.



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