• Talking to Myself

    by  • December 14, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 3 Comments

    “can anybody hear me? or am I talking to myself?”

    The Problem is, I know you are reading this and you don’t care either. For this a part of me is glad, and another part of me is terribly sad. I feel broken, like a toy used by a two year old then left in the corner. I’m so sick of my plastic smile I have to hide behind. Don’t open this can of Soda, it will just blow up in your face. I sound like just another whiney internet user, I know. I’m sorry to whomever took time out of the precious life to read this drivel. It really isn’t worth the time.

    Long story short: I have been struggling with Depression since I was 11 years old. (I am now 19) but in a group of siblings who drink, experiment with drugs, frequently run away, and all sorts of other crazy I am the support. I hold everyone up. I make the peace.

    I’m just so tired. I am just so DONE with trying to help everyone fix their problems then curling up on the floor of my room and sobbing while I slice my arms and legs with scissors. I am tired of feeling lonely all the time.

    over and out.

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    3 Responses to Talking to Myself

    1. wolffy
      December 14, 2012 at 10:34 am

      You’re not alone. Some of us were born to keep the peace. Otherwise wed all be dead. I’m the same in my family. And I talk to myself all the time. At the end of the day were stuck alone with ourself anyway. You can’t truly love anyone if you don’t love yourself. I know its hard but cutting isn’t going to get you anything but scars. I’m on depression pills and they help. Wake up beautiful, before you’ve lost yourself.




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    2. Aimee
      December 14, 2012 at 12:19 pm

      The world may seem like a lonely place. Don’t give up. Don’t let yourself slip away. You can overcome this and you can escape into a better life. You can do this. I believe in you. x




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    3. Alex
      December 14, 2012 at 8:24 pm

      Hey, There’s people still listening here. We care, some people understand and we are here for you.




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