• Content but missing you

    by  • December 14, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 3 Comments

    First of all I just want to say thanks for telling me how you felt all those years ago. I never knew exactly what you were thinking, if you were unsure, sure or what. At some point I thought you just wanted to mess with me but I do believe that we would have only gotten closer. It was so hard to accept for so long that we just dissipated. I seriously lost who I was. I now know that you broke it off so that we could be together and better later on in life. Now I’m just waiting. I know you’re coming back for me… the question is when. I miss you so much! Sometimes it’s so hard to be strong in a world that only wants to use you but I’m doing it. I’m going to try to get myself as together as possible while you’re gone. We could be so great together, it’s so hard doing this without you. I remember what it was like all those years ago being even in the same room with you- not together and I’m so excited to finally be together you have no idea. If I knew what it is that had to be done in order to be with you again I would do it but maybe it is just time. Who knows really. I really do hope to just see you soon. Whatever the circumstances I just want to make eye contact with you. Who knows if that’s even possible. I’m testing tomorrow, wish me luck. I love you, I know that sounds weird but I do. Stay positive and I’ll try to do the same and I can’t wait to cuddle with you 🙂


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    3 Responses to Content but missing you

    1. anonymous
      December 15, 2012 at 3:54 am



    2. A
      December 15, 2012 at 4:56 pm

      why can’t you be together if you think you are meant for each other?


    3. anonymous
      December 17, 2012 at 7:26 am

      This is probably from a girl to a guy, but if it happened to be from a guy to a girl from long ago, I would say to my old friend…

      You know, our relationship was a mess, it wasn’t because I didn’t love you, you weren’t ready, I was, but I also was scarred from my parents divorce, etc. I wasn’t messing with you, I was honestly scared, I loved you so much but didn’t know how to show it. I thought it was best to move on, I seemed to be making your life miserable, I just wanted to be with you 24 hrs. a day.

      I’ve never wanted to be with anyone else that much, honestly. Oh god what a mess. Don’t wait for me, it’s not that I don’t love you, it’s just that I would never put my children through the emotional wreckage I experienced. I live for them, not for myself and my husband is a nice person and we care for each other. If I had only known or trusted you more, I think I would be a happier person.

      If there were some way I could reach out to you without hurting people I love I would, I’m sorry if this hurts you, I didn’t mean to. Really, I’m sorry, I thought you just weren’t that into me. I’m not sure what my ‘friend’ Tara was telling you, but it’s not true. I loved you and only you all through college :).



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