• It’s like two people inside one mind

    by  • December 13, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 4 Comments

    Ever since I became aware of the damage people have been doing to the world and how badly people treat others, I’ve become homicidal. I don’t think I would ever act on them, but I know that if I was in a physical confrontation, I would not be able to stop.

    There’s this one girl who made me suicidal and depressed last year. I ended up not going to school for a week. Not because I was afraid of her, but because I was afraid of what I would do as a form of revenge. Fortunately for both of us, she ended up moving to Japan randomly, so she’s completely gone out of my life. But there is not one day that I don’t think about what she had done to me, and how badly I want to KILL her. People have said that she might be moving back, and I get so worried and stressed because I know that I will go to her house wearing a mask and I will stab her.

    I hate EVERYBODY, but I am so gentle, generous, supportive and understanding to everyone. It’s like two people inside one mind. I know that I have the biggest heart, and that’s why it’s so strange for me. I LOVE ANIMALS, I will kill a person before I kill an animal. They are my therapy, and so is nature….

    I only think about killing people.

    I hope everyone dies

    4 Responses to It’s like two people inside one mind

    1. stranger
      December 13, 2012 at 10:50 am

      This is not good, I mean this in the nicest way, but you need to talk to someone before you hurt someone, there is help out there, you can’t go around thinking these horrible things about people, it’s not healthy…

    2. C
      December 15, 2012 at 12:38 am

      But in reality, isn’t it because you loath yourself?

      We all have a breaking limit, a limit to our will. Yours seems weak. It’s not necessarily a bad thing. Your will can always be built stronger.

      It’s not that you want to kill people. You simply want to be acknowledged, to be loved, don’t you? When we’re neglected and voided of all these affections others have, we become confused, we become afraid–and our loneliness shadows the truth. We can pretend to hate others. But that’s not true at all.

      You may wonder why I speak like I know of the pain caused to you. Well, I have been in a very similar situation, if not worse. What was once hate within me, I was luckily able to decipher as a false feeling. I was lonely–I wanted people to love me.

      You won’t find love through death. You have to realize this first if you want yourself to forget those horrible memories.

      Best wishes.

    3. Anonymous
      December 15, 2012 at 11:48 am

      I totally agree.
      With everything.
      The love of nature and animals, the hatred of humans.

      It IS natural, because humans are disgusting and don’t even try to stop their own actions.
      Humans should all disappear and leave Earth alone.
      The only thing that’s wrong with the world is humans.

    4. someone
      December 15, 2012 at 2:10 pm

      I agree, please talk to someone before you do any of these things you keep thinking about. Before someone gets hurt and your life is ruined.

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