• Feel like ending my life

    by  • December 12, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Disappointment • 2 Comments

    Dear all the people I will hurt or did hurt,
    I am very sorry to fail you guys. Mostly my parents. I know that your older children couldn’t fulfill your many wishes like finishing school and having a good career. As the 10th child I started out with a strong mind set but as I gotten older and less motivated , I am seeing myself following my older siblings footsteps. That is the worst nightmare that any parents or self can see doing. I’ve always told myself that I WILL NEVER FOLLOW IN THEIR FOOTSTEPS but look at me now, doing it myself. I want to end my life right now because you can say LIFE hit me. Don’t know who or what to do. My motivation level is below zero right now. Why can’t I get a string and good helping hand? I’m at fault to begin with. I just end my miseries right here right now. I’m going to live with this guilt for the rest of my life. Can’t change the past and the things you had done. Suicide isn’t the answer. It did cross my mind couple time and it was serious but I know I won’t do it because I’m too afraid. WHY AM I MAKING IT SO HARD ON MYSELF? UGH I JUST WANNA BREAK DOWN AND CRY UNTIL MY EYES ARE GONE………… GOODBYE LIFE I’M GOING TO GO DOWN THE DRAIN………….

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    2 Responses to Feel like ending my life

    1. k
      December 12, 2012 at 5:25 pm

      don’t give up. The hardest step is the very first. Think about it. You may not FEEL motivated, but you can do right in spite of your feelings. Eventually motivation will become a habit, just don’t give up. There is one who has a plan for you. just turn a fall in his arms. he sees past your failures to what He created you to be. Don’t give up. there is hope.


    2. Rajani
      December 12, 2012 at 9:45 pm

      Dear you….

      Don’t be this disheartened, I don’t know who u r n from where u r but listen to me. Life could be bad n full of miseries BUT EVERY TIME WE HAVE POWER IN US TO FIGHT IT BACK, U ONLY HAVE TO REALIZE WHAT WENT WRONG N HOW TO AMEND THAT. Dear this sound bookish yes i know. but honestly it’ true. RECOLLECT UR SELF N FIGHT, IT WILL TAKE TIME BUT IT WILL BE ALL RIGHT SOON.
      with love n FAITH……



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