• I Hate This Life

    by  • December 11, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 3 Comments

    Dear life,

    I’m so done with you. You’re the reason I have scars on my wrists, and that fresh one today. You’re the one who made me push myself so much I make myself sick. You’re the reason I have anxiety, and why I have trust problems. I don’t know why I was thinking I could keep working on you when all you’ve done is treat me like shit. You’re the reason I can’t see my friends as friends because I’m paranoid that they’re not going to last for a long time. You’re the reason why I cry at night, and why I can’t go to sleep no matter how hard I try. I like sleeping, it’s my only escape from this living Hell I’ve been suffering in.

    So why don’t I end my time with you? Death doesn’t scare me anymore. I feel numb. You have nothing to promise me anymore, no one loves me, and I just want to sleep and never wake up. My grades are godawful, I can’t get along with anyone recently, I’m not sure how I’m going to keep going on. My throat burns, and my eyes water. But I need to feel real pain. I need someone to notice me.
    I’m shattered and torn. No one can help me.

    In bitter anger,
    DEB

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    3 Responses to I Hate This Life

    1. C
      December 11, 2012 at 12:48 pm

      Get help. Life does get better. It’s hard to see it when you are young but there are so many great things to come. You just have to hold your head up when things get tough and know you are going to be ok, you will be, don’t let this take you down. Lead your life where you want it to go, don’t just follow it along. If you do this you will find reasons to smile and be happy. Life is what you make it. Look at the good, good that can come along. Don’t dwell on the bad, its only temporary and it can’t hurt you if you don’t let it.




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    2. An almost suicide victim's lover
      December 11, 2012 at 8:17 pm

      I know it seems like the world is crashing down,
      And you’ll never find anyone who cares about you,
      But you will.
      I promise.

      The most important person in my life had a brush with suicide a couple years back.
      He almost did it, because he didn’t think there was anything left for him, but he stopped himself. In that same week, he met his best friend. His best friend saved his life.
      A couple years later, he met me.

      We make each other so happy. He’s far from this feelingof sadness, now.
      Had it went through with it, I would have never met my soul mate.

      Please keep going.
      Please keep on fighting.
      Your soul mate is out there.
      He/she is going to love you when they meet you,
      They’ll accept all of your flaws,
      And see you as a perfect person. They’ll be there in your times of need.
      And I promise they’ll be thankful and cherish you if they knew you came close, but fought through.

      Things will get better.
      Even in the darkest of times, there is light.

      I’m praying for you. <3




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    3. January 2, 2013 at 11:51 am

      please don’t give up. people like you make me realize that we are not alone and other people are feeling the same pain as us. i need you to not give up, so i will not give up. i need your strength.




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