My Dearest Robert,
I honestly don’t know where to begin when it comes to you. I could write pages among pages about us, but I’m writing this letter because I want you to know where I would be if I didn’t have you in my life… because you deserve a hell of a lot of credit (maybe even a nobel prize) for all the things you’ve ever done for me…
When I couldn’t do my history homework at 2am, you walked over and helped me with it. When I needed a junk food spree at 3am on a Monday because I was depressed, you were the one who would drive me to 711. When I needed someone to cry to about all the shitty feelings I’ve ever felt, you were there with tissues. When I was about to kill myself (2 times), you were at my house in a heartbeat, regardless of the time of night. When I had to go to the outpatient program during the summer, you were my biggest support system. When I gained all that weight because of the medicine I was on, you still called me beautiful. When I needed to go feed the ducks at the park, you would buy me the bread (and anything else i wanted). Absolutely ANY SINGLE TIME I’ve ever called or texted you, you’ve answered.
Even now, when I was about to kill myself (3rd time) here at college, you drove your car at 1am for two hours just to come make sure I was ok.
What I’m trying to say is (as selfish as this is) I literally cannot live without you. You’re the kind of guy that girls dream about. You’re literally perfect in every single way and I should be thanking God every second of every day that you love me so much. I want you to myself and I know you want the same from me. But we both know it’s not that easy; I’ve cheated on you 5 times, I owe you countless amounts of money… I AM THE ONE WHO CAUSED THOSE DARK CIRCLES UNDER YOUR EYES. It’s making me cry just thinking of how horribly I’ve treated you considering you don’t deserve any part of it.
Of all the promises I’ve ever made (that I usually break) and of all the things I’ve ever said, this following statement has never spoken more truth through means of both my mind and heart…
“Rob, no one in the world is ever going to love me like you do. I’m asking you right now to propose to me. You know I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I am willing to do whatever it takes to make that possible. If that means getting a job here so I can get money to come visit you on the weekends, then i’ll do it. If that means not going out on the weekends so I don’t compromise our relationship, then i’ll do it. But most importantly, if that means buying me an expensive ring that ensures I love you AND ONLY YOU, then I would pray to God that you would do it. I was put on this world to be with you (I’m sure of it). You are the one and only for me, and I’m not the only one who sees it. Everyone knows of our love. Please marry me, Rob. I love you with every single part of my soul.”