i’m going to lose you. i know it. it’s already slipping away. I know why. but it still sucks. you’re my best friend, but that’s going to change too isn’t it? I really don’t want it to, but it has to. it won’t be fun. it’s guaranteed to be awkward. i’m going to have to stop and think about what i say before i do. that’s not my style and we both know that. it’s going to be hard. it’s going to suck. it already does. it’s over. out the window. and it’s heartbreaking. i feel like my fun side took a beating and died a little. i just want to cry. curl up and hide. find someone to make me feel the way you used to. it’s going to be so hard to see you and not resort back to the old us. no more flirting. no more winks, no more joking. please, i just want our friendship back. but it’s gone. i saw it last night in your face. we couldn’t even look at each other when we talked. it’s in the way we text now. it’s so hard. maybe it’s best that it’s almost christmas break.