I am so scared right now.
Everything we know could be shattered so quickly and so easily by so few people.
Your career could be over.
My parents could make my life a living hell.
Everything I’m sure of could go away like that.
My stomach is in knots upon knots. It feels like there’s a cinder block rolling around inside of it.
I can’t eat without feeling nauseous.
My every thought hinges on this; I can’t focus on anything else.
But despite all of this, I can’t help but to love you so much.
I trust you so much, all of my love goes to you. I have faith in you, in us.
But my parents scare me so much. My mother was talking to Paul’s wife. My dad has been asking me about my every movement. I don’t know what to do except to keep loving you and believing that it will all somehow turn out okay. Because I love you, dear.
And so I will keep waiting.
I will wait until someone tells me what’s going on.
I will wait until I see something from you.
I will wait until the 15th.
I will wait for us.
I love you so much. I have so much faith in us, darling. The knot that connects us eternally will never diminish. You are the only person perfect for me, and the only person that ever will be.