• Not Who You See

    by  • December 1, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Parents • 1 Comment

    Dear Mom and Dad,

    I am not who you think I am. You see a teenage girl who is doing well in life. I make okay grades. I don’t do drugs. I don’t go out and party. I go to church with you Sunday morning. I don’t skip school. I don’t drink. I don’t have sex.

    But I hate who I am. I hate that I’m weak. I hate that I never stand up for myself in fights. I hate that I can never finish anything I start. I hate that people see me as cute and innocent.

    You think I’m so innocent and for the most part I am. But I have gotten drunk before. And I loved it. I think when I’m older I’ll be an alcoholic. And I love piercings and tattoos. On my eighteenth birthday I’ll get my cartilage, nose, and belly button pierced. I’ll probably get a tattoo also.

    The idea of doing something with business and making a lot of money but never having time for myself makes me sick to my stomach. Doing something where I can’t be myself makes me sick.

    But the truth is I’m not like you guys. I’m not happy with ordinary. I want to be crazy and I don’t give a fuck what other people say! I want to scream at the top of my lungs because I feel trapped.

    You force your opinions and beliefs down my throat. And I know you mean well by it but I want to do what makes me happy.

    I’m sorry I’m such a disappointment to you guys. It hurts me just as much as it hurts you but the sooner you learn to accept me for who I am the better off we will all be.



    One Response to Not Who You See

    1. Hannah W.
      December 2, 2012 at 11:43 am

      Hey there, fellow Hannah.
      A little bit of this letter sounds like me,
      The fact that everyone see’s me as innocent as well,
      And that I don’t do bad things.
      As for the non commonalities, I’ve never drank like you said you have,nor do I go to church anymore.

      But I understand how annoying it is for everyone to peg you as innocent, even go as far as saying that you’re not allowed to do anything wrong because you’re “supposed” to be a good little girl.

      I have friends telling me that they can never see me ever having sex and that I’m not allowed to because I’m so “cute and innocent.” But I’m not.

      I’d like to drink a couple times when I’m of age, I’m obviously going to lose my virginity soon enough, because I want to.
      All of this is my choice and I don’t give two craps about what people think.
      And it’s good that you don’t either.

      Obviously, parents are a little different. I mean, no kid is going to want their parents to know everything that they do. We all have secrets. But it sucks that they shove their beliefs down your throat.
      They should understand that you’re your own person. And they can’t change that.

      Sometimes we don’t turn out perfect, and there’s nothing wrong with that.
      You just have to stay true.
      If you wanna be an alcoholic, then fine. I can’t say that’s the best choice, but hey, it’s your life and no one else’s.

      I hope things turn out well for you.

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