I told myself to let it be, it is what it is, and in actually doing so, I started to find comfort in being a friend to you again. But for the life of me, I still cannot handle when our eyes connect a certain way, because of what it stirs up inside of me… I saw a glimpse of that look today and I quickly looked down and shook my head.I knew if I let you find that center, I would not be able to look away, like last time, and I can’t let you do that again… no matter how good it feels. I often ask myself, how can something that feels so right… be so wrong? I’ve got a handle on all the other things I feel around you, but that look is one thing that I can’t handle well without it visibly showing on the outside. I simply can’t allow it, no matter how much I want to feel that feeling again. I suppose this is much like the forbidden apple, I must resist the temptation.