• I hate you but I love you.

    by  • November 30, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Eff Off - You - or Up • 1 Comment

    I seriously hate you so much. Throughout our whole 3 year relationship you pushed me around, walked all over me, torn me down and told me I wasn’t worthy of you. You made me feel like a piece of shit for 3 years. But I stayed for so long because I loved you so much. Who knows why. And when I finally got the courage to leave you, it was seriously the hardest thing I’ve ever done because it literally kills me to hurt you. You had no problem hurting me all the time but I can’t stand to see you hurt. That is so unfair. It’s so unfair that you couldn’t care less about me. But I still love you. Its pathetic.
    Now that we aren’t together, all I want is for you to not be happy. I know how harsh and wrong that is of me but it’s what you deserve. I know someday I’ll grow up and want the best for you, but as of now, I don’t. I want you to realize all I did for you. All I gave up for you. I just want you to miss me and realize how much I loved you. I don’t want to be with you but I also don’t want you to be happy with anyone else. I know how wrong that it. I don’t care.
    So for now, I wish you would just leave me alone. Stop texting me, stop calling, stop trying to make me feel bad. I want to forget about you. I need to move on to someone who will treat me like I deserve.
    I hate you. But I still love you.

    One Response to I hate you but I love you.

    1. No longer abused
      December 1, 2012 at 6:32 am

      I went through this exact situation two years ago. Don’t answer the calls or texts no matter how hard it may be – he will be fine, and it will be much easier for you to move on. He’s not worth the pain, I promise you’ll find someday that love isn’t nearly what you thought it was. I’m proud of you, you’re stronger than most people. Stay strong.

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