Barbara,

Fuck you. Seriously FUCK YOU. After 20+ years it has come down to this. I used to always stick up for you no matter what – because you were my ‘best’ friend after all..and then you went and picked him over everything. You’re a fucking idiot. We have so many great memories together, we were inseparable for a long time. And then came high school when you picked your boyfriend over everyone else..he left you and you eventually came crawling back. I forgave you for everything..only to go through the same thing a couple years later. Except this is so much worse. He hits you, he abused drugs (and I say he still does), he has anger issues and constantly talks you down, YOU TRIED TO FUCKING KILL YOURSELF BECAUSE OF HIM. WAKE THE FUCK UP STUPID! You make me soo mad. How can you pick a piece of shit like him over everything else in your life? You started back up on your old habits..you stopped eating, started barfing, taking numerous pills at once..who the fuck are you?! I miss you, I really do. and I care about you more than you will ever know but I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be your friend when he hits you and you’re crying but be invisible every other time. I wish you would get better but I think you’re beyond that point – your body has given up on you and its the saddest thing ever. You can’t see that you’re better than this, you deserve better and no matter how many people tell you, you will never listen. I’m over being mad at you but I refuse to watch you fall apart at your own disposal. No one can help you if you’re not willing to help yourself. I really wish things could be different. I hope things work out for the two of you..for the 39353805th time of trying. I can’t promise I’ll be there to catch you fall when the time comes..where have you been when I’ve needed you lately? We haven’t talked in months it seems like. It hurts it has to be this way but I can’t see it as getting better.

“LYL your SFL”