I can never find words for you and it upsets me more than you could ever know. What can I say? It feels like everything is so implied. You’re perfect for me.
I wake up in the morning and I’m in such a bad mood that I tell myself that I’m going to have a bad day. I’m going to force myself to be unhappy. Then the second I see you, everything inside me swells and I forget everything bad that’s happened.
I love when I’m trying to focus in class and I get frustrated and I’m about to get upset and give up and then I look over to you. You just smile that crooked smile and tell me that I look beautiful when I’m confused.
I love that you ask to skype with me instead of text even when the microphone on my webcam is broken. You say you just like seeing my face.
I love that you make me text you when I get home from walking to class.
I’m so confused and frustrated by you and that’s why I lash out. I make rude jokes or tease you because I truly don’t know how to show you how I feel.
The truth is, I’m terrified of how much I care about you. I’ve never felt this strongly about a person and we haven’t been together for very long. After getting out of a two year relationship I thought I had love figured out, but then I met you. I’ve never felt like this before and it’s terrifying that you have that much control over me. I was crushed after he broke up with me and now I’m not even sure if we were in love or not.
I’m sorry I can’t tell you this.