I had just finished visiting with my somewhat elderly friend and we had had a nice time..talking about life, how to knit/crochet, etc. It put me in a good, albeit do-gooder mood. But really I have learned to enjoy the company of those older than myself, and when I talk with them, it’s comfortable and I learn a lot.

But that isn’t the point of all this. I was in a strangely outgoing mood when I stopped by Kroger afterwards. And at the self-checkout I saw her. She was a worker there, and she was organizing the station next to me, and I felt like someone was glancing at me, but I was busy scanning and I didn’t take much notice at that time. It was probably my imagination anyway. After scanning my few items I walked up to her so I could buy some cigarettes. The normal worker’s “hi how are you” was given and I responded with “pretty well, how are you?” And I think the question back threw her off. We soon chuckled briefly and then I got to my primary question. She went over to get the cigarettes and asked ‘Camel Crushes, right?” And I confirmed.

..as I was leaving she said the obligatory “have a goodnight!” But I think we held eye contact longer.

On my drive home I thought about how she reminded me of a crush I had 4 years ago. But there was something older-seeming about this one. And how her hair hair was short’ish but cute, and how this worker had glasses she probably wore on a normal basis. Extra-cute. And how I was a bit clumsy/dumb-seeming probably because I was thrown off by the attraction.

As I thought about it later, it made me goofy grin, even though it was only a short exchange.