There is a hole in my past that I should have
filled years ago.

I thought my friend was my friend, and that by walking
away, the guy I loved might come looking for me.

Well none of that was the case, it is only recently that
I found out that he had another girlfriend and he named
his child after my ‘friend’.

I don’t know what hurts more, that he never tried to find
me or that he wasn’t alone in hurting me.

Oh well, married now with 2 kids, I’m okay.

Not what I initially wanted, but I have a ‘nice’ life.

Still hurts and always will, but I have no control over
how people treat me.

Just need to keep wearing my teflon rain coat! Just check
another x in some people are jerks column. I think I still have more
x’s for people in the nice column in spite of this personal
disaster from years ago!

Chin’s up ladies! Your ship will come in.