Dear First Love
by admin • October 3, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 0 Comments
It’s been years since I’ve seen you, held you, and felt your love. I tried to lock you safe and keep you forever and always, but I now know that can’t be our ending. At first I wouldn’t accept that you wouldn’t always be mine and I tried my hardest to fight that outcome.
Yet I lost you.
I lost us and the love we greatly felt for one another. We became two different people. We grew up and are no longer young and inlove under the summer sun. After years of believing that we could still be, it hit me.
I’ve learned to let you go, and accept that we both need to part ways.
Believe me, you were a hard one to let go. I built my world around you and when you weren’t there I lost myself for a little while, but there came a moment where I knew our story had it’s ending. I know it sounds odd but I think our story was meant to have a twist to the ending, not a happily ever after. More like a mystery and the story that was never completely unfolded. I promise that no one will ever take your place in my heart. That is permanently yours forever just like I have told you before, years ago.
You saved me once. You helped me learn who I truly was. You helped me become who I am today. I thank you for all of that and more. You are so much more than you give yourself credit for and soon I believe that you will know that. You were everything to me and I’m sure I will not be the last who feels that way for you. You have an amazing heart. Whoever you choose to give it to is the luckiest woman in the world and I will be jealous. But I can’t be greedy because you were able to rescue me and there is someone out there who needs you to rescue them. We had something that most people never experience. I will treasure those memories and feelings always. I will never forget the man who gave all of that to me. I realized that you taught me the greatest lesson of all: that there is such a thing as true, untainted, never failing love that fights. You gave me hope that there is such a thing and that even I can find it for myself someday. I will always love you my first love and remember the summer that changed and saved me.
Love, Your Young Love.
