So it’s been 6 months since we broke up, and the truth is i still think of you every single single day, i’m not in love with you anymore and i’m definitely over you but i still think of you everyday. We were together for so long, you were my first love, i put so much effort into our relationship to keep us together to keep you from leaving me and to make you keep loving me but i guess i just couldn’t make you stay, i guess i couldn’t keep you forever… I really don’t know where we went wrong, i mean i know we didn’t have a perfect relationship…but we did have our good times and we did love each other, well i know i loved you. What hurt the most was knowing that the whole time we were together you pretty much cheated on me the whole time… you cheated on me on and off for two years, and that’s not even the worst part, the worst part was you physically abusing me whenever you got mad at me, you would push me, hit me and other things whenever you got mad, did i really deserve that? you always apologized afterwards but that didn’t change how much it hurt me. I honestly don’t think i could ever forgive you, i stayed with you through so much but it was so easy for you to leave me and move on. I will never forget you, i will never forget how much you broke my heart, how much you made me cry, i will never forget the hurt you caused me, yes i’ve moved on but since you, i haven’t been able to heal completely, i haven’t been able to trust anyone completely, i haven’t been able to give someone my heart, (i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to, i don’t wanna go through the heartbreak and the tears ever again) i haven’t been able to love anyone like i loved you and i haven’t been able to just fully give my all to someone and it’s all because of you. i don’t think you know just how much you have affected my life. no one knows i feel this way, because i don’t want anyone to know, but no one knew how much i truly loved you, every time i think of you my heart hurts… supposedly now you’ve “changed” and ur all about God and u forgive me for all the things i did, but why couldn’t you change while we were together? we were supposed to be together forever and start our own family, i was actually happy with you, but i guess you weren’t… you called our relationship, “horrible” was it really that horrible? i’m sorry if it was, i’m sorry that i wasn’t good enough and that i wasn’t the best gf, but all i did was love you with my all… i guess i wasn’t good enough.
the truth is i will prolly never forget you, and forget how you hurt me i just pray that one day i will be able to forgive you and i’ll be able to love someone and give them my heart again.