Why won’t you learn? Don’t you see that you are more that what you are letting the world see. You have this smile that can light up the world. You care more about others than you do yourself. Your eyes show the truth of who you are, an innocence that is something I have always looked up to. You are my big brother. The reason I do certain things. The reason I am who I am. I always wanted to be like you and your friends. And now I am living a life where I am lucky..doing more things that our parents are proud of than you..but I would kill to find love like you have found, multiple times..but still. Either way..you have been arrested four times in the past four years. The world is unravelling. I can see that. And I want to help you. Let down some of your angry, sad walls. And let us help you grow up to be who we know you will one day be. I miss you. And I love you. just stop messing up!