I’ve been on this planet for 21 years now and granted things haven’t ever been easy but there have been interludes of peace. I’ve never asked for much. Never recieved gifts for birthdays or the last 2 Christmases or for my high school graduation. Now I’m a senior in college I’ve lost all my financial aid because you didn’t file taxes and can barely pay tuition with my hard earned scholarships. I work 3 jobs, maintain a 3.69GPA, am graduating from honors college and my major, work on my resume for my future career and help out any friend who needs me. Yet still I can’t my rent, I have no one to talk to, and no where to go when I graduate. Yet still you decided to get a divorce, threaten to kill yourselves or run your own lives because of decisions that you made, tangle money you promised to me for my survival (and literally owe me from when I gave you that $3000 to buy beer, and a new phone, and a new Sims game). I called you and you said you would be there for me no matter what. You all did. You all said, now is my time of need and that I needed to let you all help me. Well I finally gave in and accepted your help, but when it came time to deliver you all turned your back on me, and wanted me to help you with your problems. You weren’t there for me. Well I’ve got news for you. I’m not perfect. I don’t always have it all figured out. I can’t always make it work. And I’m falling apart. Like literally, actually falling apart. I needed you this once. I’ve never asked for anything and I needed you this once. And you were all too selfish to be there for me this one time. All I ask for is love. I’ve given it to you for 21 years despite all that you have done to me. I asked for 5months. Is that so hard?! Now I’m alone and crying and barely able to get up and live my life in the morning. I have nothing. I mean nothing. You’ve done this to me. Know that. I wish you loved me enough to love me at all.
-Lost, Desperate, Betrayed, and Alone