I’ve written a letter to you once before, and I meant every word of it. Now, this semester you are suddenly back in my life…it’s almost like you read the letter and heard my plea just to have you back as my friend. I couldn’t appreciate this any more than I already do. You were my best friend and we were basically dating. I wish you would have made it official because I still think you’re a good guy no matter what you put me through. I don’t know why, but I stuck around, and I am glad I did.
You managed to teach me a lot about guys and you taught me a lot about myself too. I always have a good time when I am with you and you always know how to make me laugh. There is still a little part in me that really wants to call you mine…a little bit of me that would say yes in a heartbeat if you asked me out. Again, I’m not sure why. I just would.
I still have so many unanswered questions for you but I know you would never tell me. You would never tell me why you kissed one of our friends while we were talking. You would never tell me why you said you would let me know you liked me “when you were ready”. You would never tell me anything like this and I really wish you would. I know that even if I approached the subject, you would feel awkward about it.
Sometimes you meet that person in your life that you never want to go away…sometimes you meet a person that everyone else in the world seems to dislike for some reason, but you can’t get enough of them…sometimes you meet that person in life that is “the right one”…and I think that’s you…but you’ll never know because you would never give me a chance to explain myself. Even if you did, I wouldn’t know how to even bring it up.
I miss the little things.. I miss us cuddling. I miss us talking. I miss our movie nights. I miss your texting. I miss your laughs, your eyes…basically everything about you…everything about us.
I guess I’ll settle with friendship. I have faced reality in the respect that that is all we will ever be. I really don’t like it, and for some reason it is still rough on me. I don’t know how and I don’t know why, but it is. I miss us more than you will ever know and more than you could ever imagine. All I can say is thank you for always being my friend.