He is my only option now, the last one that I considered. I didn’t know all of this. I didn’t realize what he actually did. Jess, I didn’t want him like this. It’s like you’ve regurgetated him and now I’m expected to suck him down with a straw. It’s making me sick how he treated us. Now, I keep thinking if he hadn’t tried to get with me where I would be right now. If I would have moved on with someone awesome and have a career and all that. I feel like the relationship I have with him is kind of like my brown and black outfit. I can’t believe I allowed you to convince me that was ok to where out. He didn’t choose me and it just might cause him to lose me. Then what? I know you don’t wanna hear it but I felt like bitching. Not to mention, fuck you. In a way you’re a home wrecker and you damn well know it.