Fury
by admin • September 9, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 8 Comments
You make me want to vomit. Everything about you as a human being makes me want to vomit. I try and I try to forget you but you’re plaguing my thoughts like the living dead. You’re disgusting.
I can’t believe how badly you treated me. You made me feel like nothing. You made me feel like the ugliest person in the world when I was almost everything rolled into one neat little package. No-one can be everything, but I was so close. You abused the SHIT out of me.
I remember lying in bed wondering why you didn’t find me sexy. Why you chose to cheat on me with that hideous troll when there I was. There was just no reason for it. She was awful and dumb as a brick. I wondered if it was because I was bad in bed, but i’m certifiably good, I was a minx in the sack as you admitted after we were over. Time and time again you humiliated me and devalued me all the while claiming that you loved me.
I tried so hard to be that everything. That successful, pretty, intelligent and funny girl that’s supposed to be the stuff men dream about, but no matter how hard I tried to be what you wanted so that you didn’t cheat on me, or no matter how good I already was, you rubbished me.
Then you find her. The next one, after I tear myself away and try and save the little scraps of dignity I have left, and you treat her like a princess? What the hell did I do to deserve what you did to me? I will NEVER understand and I can’t STAND YOU for doing that to me. It tears me apart every day to the point that I get that awful feeling in my chest and tears start welling in my eyes.
I don’t know if i’ll ever get over what happened. I’ll always wonder what it was about me that made you treat me that way when I did nothing to deserve it. What’s worse is that you get to move on, completely unaffected, while I’m left trying to pick up the pieces. Such ugliness. I woe the day I stumbled upon it.
Maybe he just grew up a little.. Trying to be a better guy to this new girl.
If you are all of that… I’m sure there are lots of guys out there for ya.
How can you grow up so much in 2 months?
Everyone’s a part in his little play. He’ll do whatever he wants whenever he feels like it regardless of who he hurts in the process. He’ll be fine for now but the day he starts getting restless he won’t blink before he sticks his disgusting,diseased little penis in some other, trashy woman. What sucks is that good quality girls get trampled in the process.
I’m quite alright, but being with him has put me off being with anyone for a good while. Anyway, there goes my vent. Back to forgetting.
It’s no wonder that truth is stranger than fiction. Fiction has to make sense.
-Mark Twain
Dear author,
First I would like to say that I’m sorry, even though you didn’t give many details, I feel the hurt in your words and I’m sorry he made you feel that way. I thought “C’s” response came off a bit insensitive, and no, *I* don’t think one can grow that much in two months. I wish I could tell you why he treated you badly and not this new one. This is something many people have experienced but you must not dwell on it dear. ” I’ll always wonder what it was about me that made you treat me that way when I did nothing to deserve it” That line broke my heart and made me wish I could just give you the biggest hug. Anyhow, there isn’t much I can say to you, but if I had all the answers I’d give them to you, and if I could make you feel better I wouldn’t hesitate to do so. -Wishing you the best and hoping you can put this behind you. Sending love and positive energy wherever you are xo
Sounds like you met my ex-boyfriend.
Hi A,
From the posts i’ve read on here there are a lot of people like our exes out there. I haven’t talked about half the awful things he used to do. Cheating was just one part of his rotten package. I figure people hurt other people, whether they’re good or bad, but some people have a special talent for it, and seem to enjoy it. That was my ex.
Maybe C was right, maybe he has just grown up, but I don’t think so. I think he’s problems go deeper than immaturity. I think he’s one of those people that need help.
I think the unlucky aspect of the whole situation was that we had to meet them at all, but thank god they’re exes.
Does your one try and get in contact with you sporadically when you’ve made it clear you want them out of your life to remind you they exist?
Urgh, what a creep!!!
Thank you M
I think that i’m getting past it, and if Mr psychopath leaves me alone I can forget about it and move on!
Than you for your positive thoughts!!!