You make me want to vomit. Everything about you as a human being makes me want to vomit. I try and I try to forget you but you’re plaguing my thoughts like the living dead. You’re disgusting.
I can’t believe how badly you treated me. You made me feel like nothing. You made me feel like the ugliest person in the world when I was almost everything rolled into one neat little package. No-one can be everything, but I was so close. You abused the SHIT out of me.
I remember lying in bed wondering why you didn’t find me sexy. Why you chose to cheat on me with that hideous troll when there I was. There was just no reason for it. She was awful and dumb as a brick. I wondered if it was because I was bad in bed, but i’m certifiably good, I was a minx in the sack as you admitted after we were over. Time and time again you humiliated me and devalued me all the while claiming that you loved me.
I tried so hard to be that everything. That successful, pretty, intelligent and funny girl that’s supposed to be the stuff men dream about, but no matter how hard I tried to be what you wanted so that you didn’t cheat on me, or no matter how good I already was, you rubbished me.
Then you find her. The next one, after I tear myself away and try and save the little scraps of dignity I have left, and you treat her like a princess? What the hell did I do to deserve what you did to me? I will NEVER understand and I can’t STAND YOU for doing that to me. It tears me apart every day to the point that I get that awful feeling in my chest and tears start welling in my eyes.
I don’t know if i’ll ever get over what happened. I’ll always wonder what it was about me that made you treat me that way when I did nothing to deserve it. What’s worse is that you get to move on, completely unaffected, while I’m left trying to pick up the pieces. Such ugliness. I woe the day I stumbled upon it.