I made a mistake. I’m sorry.

My stomach hasn’t unknotted in days. I feel guilty, I feel sick.

I’m just really lonely. That’s no excuse but it’s the truth.

Today, I just thought of how nice it would be to escape. To get away, leave it all behind. I held the box of tablets in my hand for an hour before I had the strength to put them down… Tempting at it was, I know it’s not the answer.

But then again, there is no answer…?

So there you have it… I’m not perfect.

And I need help.