if i asked
by admin • September 4, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 8 Comments
If I asked you to come be with me would you say yes?
If it wrecked someone else’s life would you take the risk?
If I ask enough questions will I get a response?
If I lost you as a friend would you even care?
The if questions are there for me every day. They are there and will they ever go away.
When will you leave my thoughts I am haunted by your memories, yet i was made to make this decision based on reason not based on emotion.
I am a broken man.
It is now I relies that only you can fix me but is it worth the burden society will place on that decision?
It is done it is over my door is now locked.
But a part of me still wants to leave the light on, keep the fire burning….. It will not happen I know this but I leave the thought there, the hope you find the happiness I will not share.
The bitter sweet time we had together is easily forgotten by one and carried by another, the pain of the lost friend due to distance, promises made, and responsibility to do the right thing.
The thought will linger on but it will fade.
I will rise from these ashes and make what is mine in this world.
So remember our last time together we did not say goodbye it was just a look a sad exchange into each others eyes, my safe place. Your beauty was never as rich as what your personality, and strength done for me.
I hide here when I have to deal with the hurt we have caused.
As we all deserve to be happy even if it means walking away.
Goodbye my friend, my support and my love.
The memories will fade.
But the questions will remain.
the what if and why not’s.
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I would come with you, but not yet. We need to be on equal footing.
I would take the risk because I know what’s been lost and what there is to gain.
I’ll answer anything you like if you ask, and pray you do me the same service.
I would care, you are my best friend, my confidante, my love eternal.
Why are we still left chasing tails when the answer is so simple?
Ask. Just ask. Be strong. Claim friendship. Own it. Reach out.
I know why what comes next needs to. Because I did not see what you saw, and you could not feel what I felt. I don’t feel like this is the end, and I am not afraid. I appreciate the grand scheme.
I know why what comes next needs to. Because I did not see what you saw, and could not feel what you felt.
Heres a clue your card I got you was a girl on a bike you have pasha pants and you went to such I with me on your birthday over lunch.
to all questions asked.
Not easy, life never is but YES!
What’s hardest to accomplish, will be, what we appreciate and value most – once we took the plunge.
I don’t have quitting and giving up in my blood. Truth is, self sacrifice doesn’t make others happy in the long run either. Fools believe doing the ‘right thing’ is actually the right thing if it’s really not, even if intentions are noble. Food for thought and just my own sentiments – of course.
Some time you need to do what is right, which is not returning to another country to be with a person you that has not told you how they feel. A risk it would of all be done for them but this person did not want that she wanted me to do what is right for me. She just never knew that she was right for me. I miss her every day but that will go away. She was pretty special she always will be plus I think she has someone now some 25 year old loser, who will not make her as happy as I could of. She likes red curry.