If I asked you to come be with me would you say yes?
If it wrecked someone else’s life would you take the risk?
If I ask enough questions will I get a response?
If I lost you as a friend would you even care?
The if questions are there for me every day. They are there and will they ever go away.
When will you leave my thoughts I am haunted by your memories, yet i was made to make this decision based on reason not based on emotion.
I am a broken man.
It is now I relies that only you can fix me but is it worth the burden society will place on that decision?
It is done it is over my door is now locked.
But a part of me still wants to leave the light on, keep the fire burning….. It will not happen I know this but I leave the thought there, the hope you find the happiness I will not share.
The bitter sweet time we had together is easily forgotten by one and carried by another, the pain of the lost friend due to distance, promises made, and responsibility to do the right thing.
The thought will linger on but it will fade.
I will rise from these ashes and make what is mine in this world.
So remember our last time together we did not say goodbye it was just a look a sad exchange into each others eyes, my safe place. Your beauty was never as rich as what your personality, and strength done for me.
I hide here when I have to deal with the hurt we have caused.
As we all deserve to be happy even if it means walking away.
Goodbye my friend, my support and my love.
The memories will fade.
But the questions will remain.
the what if and why not’s.