Why me.
by admin • August 8, 2012 • * Safe for Work *, Abuse • 4 Comments
Why are you doing this to me. It’s been over a year and a half, and you still hurt me. You say you’re sorry, and that you won’t let it happen again. It always happens. We’re sitting on the couch then next thing I know I’m fighting to escape your grasp, that leaves bruises on my arms. Why do you hit me. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I hurt myself because of you. I cry at night because of you. I tell you I love you. and it’s the truth. but I don’t know how much longer I can stand this.
I don’t want to leave you. I don’t. I won’t leave you. Please stop this though. You hurt me so often, I’m using so much makeup to cover up my black eyes and bruises. I’m only 16, Love. Please stop this. I’m begging you. I know you’ll never be able to read this, and if you do, you wont know this is me, but I just want you to know, that I love you, and I always will. I love the old you. I love the way we used to be. I love the way we lied in the grass, falling asleep after staring at the clouds. I want us to be like that again. but I know that things will never be the same. You will never not hit me. There will never be a time when I don’t have to be afraid when you lift your arm. There will never be a time when I won’t be afraid when you lock your arms around be, or hold my face by my neck. I’m so sorry I can’t say this to you in person. Please forgive me.
-MLE
you’re only 16 and your settleing for someone who hits you?
you need to raise your standards for yourself and what you want out of life or you will never get any better.
people will treat you the way you think you deserve to be treated-never better.
run.
Please get out of this as soon as you can. You deserve better and to be treated without having a hand laid on you like that. That person is abusing you and like the person above me wrote…run. You have your whole life ahead of you dear. You deserve to spend it with people that actually love you and treat you with kindness. There are people out there who do not act like this and would not be like this to you. Please tell someone. I know it’s hard and you might feel you love them…but the most loving thing you can do for yourself and them is to get out as soon as you can…otherwise they will think they don’t need to change. Here if you need someone to talk to.
Honey, you NEED to leave him. You are so young that I promise you there is someone else out there who will treat you much better than you are being treated now. You are capable of leaving him, I assure you the benefits of doing so will far outweigh the thought of being alone.
A letter from your future self. I was a lot like you, stuck in the exact same situation. Until one day things changed. And he tried to kill me. Thankfully, in the fight for my life I passed out near my phone. He thought I was dead. I became awake, afraid to move. I played dead and looked at him through the slits of my eyes. He was trying to rape me, even though he thought I was dead. I kneed him in the chest and dialed 911. That call saved my life. He was a doctor, he was a ‘good boy’, I laid under the stars with him at night too. I am lucky to be alive.
LEAVE BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE.