Joanna,

It’s been almost 6 years since I left. But I have a confession, I think of you daily. I dream of you and all the times I should have told you I loved you. I love you. I love you more than you will ever know. I thought about calling the office where we worked to see if anybody knew how you were. But I chickened out. You were my soul mate, I know that now. But I cant change the way things worked out. I wish you had been able to get pregnant, and had Emmy. She is growing up so smart, and girly. You would be proud of me, she really is a daddys girl, all the way down to her pink frilly jeans.

I miss feeling the way you felt in my arms, the way my hands felt on your butt as i pulled you close. Sexually you were my true goddess, you rocked my world. Rocked it in a way that no other woman has or ever will. Including her,(you know who I mean).

I think about the girls and I wonder how they are, Samantha I wonder about the most. She was just starting to become a beautiful woman, you should have been proud of her. She was and probably still is a good kid.

Joanna, I still love you and always will. I just wish you knew….