Please, just hear me out.
I cheated on you, lied to you, manipulated you, and ignored you. I wasn’t sure what I wanted or where I was going in life. I ALWAYS wanted it to be with you! BUT from the start I just never believed you would stay. You were too good to be true, and I wasn’t about to be used again so, levity was all I had to offer.
I wish I was more responsible with us. It was a lot for me at the time, I was young. I guess.. I just needed to get some things off my chest and stop feeling bad for myself. I am very hard on myself sometimes.
Don’t live an easy life! Go out there and find an amazing and difficult one! Pray for the strength to live through it.
I love you more than life, maybe someday we can be friends.