You’re leaving.

And that’s probably for the best. On the most basic of levels I know that there is absolutely no way that anything could ever have happened.

Even here, even now, on an anonymous website I can’t bring myself to say what I really want to say. Because what’s the use in wanting when the answer will always be “no”?

So many things stand in the way. So many people. So many obstacles. The answer would always be simply, “no.”

What does it matter that when I think of you, my stomach does this weird dip thing? That I feel something when I haven’t felt anything in the longest time? What does it matter that when I heard you were leaving, it wasn’t the relief I thought I would feel, but sadness?

Sometimes things just happen. And sometimes you meet someone and they are special and you know it. But you have to let it go and bury it deep.

And so I hope you find all that you are looking for. I hope your life is everything you want it to be. And I hope you are happy.

Because when the answer is always “no”….what else can you do?